The older I get, the more radical I get. I don’t identify specifically with any political ideologies but I feel the most kinship with anarchist and broader socialist ideas. I’m not sure how to get there, but my ideal world is one of equality where all people have basic human rights and no one has to struggle just to survive. A world without genocide, war, poverty, racism, misogyny, transphobia, homophobia, etc, etc. All that nasty shit us humans do. I’m not sure if it’s possible but in my brighter moods I like to think so.
As I age I get more and more sad and angry about the rampant injustices in the world, but I don’t feel like I have any answers outside of just trying hard not to be an asshole to people, and trying to educate myself about important things.
I find myself being more “pc”, and I’ve noticed I’ve began to kind of alienate some people I care about and it’s a bummer. Some things I enjoyed a lot in the past I now find myself kind of wincing at because I realize they have a broader weight, that certain things are just pretty fucked up.
And while I try to read a lot about political ideas, I always end up feeling so frustrated by most scenes based around ideologies. Whether it’s feminism, anarchy, trans identity politics, whatever, I never feel like one on one discussion is a good idea, because so often it becomes about screaming at someone and nothing more, or it’s a pissing contest over who’s read the “right” books and knows the “right” things to say. It’s so easy to get emotional and mean over things. And I am not exempt from this. I’ve said plenty of stupid shit I regret in my life.
I mean, I’m not saying everyone should be nice all the time. There are countless people who deserve to be screamed at, plenty of things worth screaming about. And sometimes being an asshole is valid and necessary, sometimes being pissed off is the only thing keeping you alive, and I get it, I do.
I dunno, I’m just kind of rambling. I’ve learned a lot by reading different experiences and concepts on here over the past year and a half. But there’s also just a lot of toxic shit, and I just dont know how to cope with it.
I just want everyone to be okay, for all the bullshit in the world to end. I dunno.